2012

2012 was indeed a roller coaster year, not to forget all the drama. i was involved in every kind of relationship problems; friends, bf, bff, seniors, housemate; you name it. From being lied to, to being schemed. Along the way, i was hurt and i hurt people too. i broke promises, i badmouthed people, i spread hatred, i was an emo brat, i mount up grudges, i thought i was the saint victim when im actually no different than the other sinner; all in all - i wasn't a good person at all. 

Only towards the end of the summer holiday that i realized all the damages done following my acts. i look into the mirror and i see an evil monster. God, the devil i've turned into, Astargfirullah. Harm's done, there's nothing i can do to undo everything. But i learnt a huge amount of lesson, of life. 

It's true what people say, some lesson in life are meant to be learnt the hard way. it's only when we forgive then only we can find an inner peace we can't find anywhere else. i am truly sorry to everyone i hurt along the maturing journey, sorry that you had to be the victim in order for me to come out a better person. i believe, at some point in life, everyone will go through this kind of experience to graduate as an adult. 

Now, it's time to turn over a new leaf and welcome 2013 with a clean heart InsyaAllah.