Outsider

When you refrain some friends of yours from knowing what's actually on your mind or your thoughts or your feelings (etc), that's when you decide that they are only OUTSIDERS who have no right to interfere with your life. and that their presence are insignificant to you.

Well, i did that quite often at various stage of my life. Not everyone deserve to know what's going on around me. HOWEVER. When you actually let someone into your life but you remain as an outsider to their's instead, that's when you feel like the world is unfair. BUT there's no one to blame in this case. We all have our right to let or not to let anyone into our life.

"Thanks for giving me a special spot in your heart. But that does not change anything. You are still an outsider to me. Sorry bout that."

In life, we all want (will get) something in return for what ever we did, be it a good one or a bad one. So, okay. Maybe then i should consider filtering you out of my life instead?

Don't take this to your heart. But hey, it's a fair trade.